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Getting Out

January 25, 2019  |  Uncategorized

Before I came to the MFA program at CSU, I wrote in a room with a lake to my left and a shut door to my right. With a notebook balanced on my blanket-covered knees, I would write my stories. They were the ones I hoped would get me into a program, but also stories […]

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Sell Art or Sell Out

November 21, 2018  |  Uncategorized

That’s where I am right now. Do I want to sell art—my art, my writings, stories of my life—and in the process sell out all the people I’ll invariably write about? I might be skipping a few steps here. There are no publishers banging down my door for a manuscript that doesn’t exist, but I’m […]

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A Letter to Home from My New One

November 9, 2018  |  Uncategorized

Dear Mom and Dad, I bought an old wooden ladder from a flea market last week and placed it near my fireplace. Mom, you’ll have to tell me what color paint to use. Dad, your old letterman’s jacket is hanging from the top step. It’s nearly falling apart but I can still wear it. The […]

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How to get into an MFA Program

October 26, 2018  |  Uncategorized

Attempt to study for the LSAT. Fail all of your Logical Reasoning practice tests. Decide that your Reading Comprehension score is okay, but that your Analytical Reasoning score is pathetic. Don’t mention any of this when your parents ask how the studying is going. Tell them it’s going well, tell them you’re making progress. Don’t […]

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Futile Devices & Speaker Language

October 12, 2018  |  Uncategorized

Sufjan Stevens has a really good song called “Futile Devices.” You should listen to it. * In my classes, we talk about “speaker language” when addressing another piece of work. As a creative non-fiction student, this makes a lot of sense: as we read and discuss the work of other authors, our peers, it is […]

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Cultivating Belief

September 28, 2018  |  Uncategorized

I am writing this post with two bags of apples— one red, the other green— on my countertop. I have sincere plans to make apple butter, cranberry apple-sauce, apple turnovers, and no fewer than three apple pies. Likely, though, I will feed both bags of apples to the doe deer that steps delicately through my […]

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Succeeding and Celebrating Together

September 14, 2018  |  Uncategorized

The first time I went to grad school I was 24. I had a GTA position and felt like a little kid playing dress-up. The heels I wore on the first day of class were thrift store treasures that were one size too big and two inches too high. The director of the program saw […]

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Do Work

May 4, 2018  |  Uncategorized

It would be nice if I knew three years ago what I know now. Then I would have been able to forge that knowledge under the cauldron of being an MFA student. It’s like, as an undergrad, when you write a paper the day before it’s due, and as you’re reading it just before you […]

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The Downhill Slope

April 20, 2018  |  Uncategorized

Being on the downhill slope of my MFA is strange. My first two and a half years here were spent, like everyone else, building, worrying, pondering, and procrastinating my thesis. There were constant late night worries about my defense and my thesis reading, especially the closer they came. I’d never done a reading of my […]

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