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Pining

May 3, 2019  |  Uncategorized

I can still remember what it felt like to pine for CSU. Visiting this same green website, letting my mouse linger over the slightly rotating geometric shapes, drooling a bit at the corners of my silly grinning mouth, searching pockets of webpages for a snatch of content I had overlooked. I remember reading “The Book” […]

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My CSU

April 19, 2019  |  Uncategorized

Colorado State University lives inside the small city of Fort Collins, snugged up against the arid foothills of the Rocky Mountains. The city itself holds 168,080 souls, who rarely think about the growing number of CSU students who share their town. When school is in session, the number of drivers on the roads of Fort […]

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Singing into the Void

April 5, 2019  |  Uncategorized

I’m at the point in my writing career where I don’t expect anyone to care about what I have to say. Most times, I don’t even know what message I have to communicate, but I know, at least, that I want to say something. Sometimes, my earth-toned tabby, Olive, howls into a corner for no […]

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Unlearning to Write

March 22, 2019  |  Uncategorized

My relationship with poetry has never been an easy one. While I’ve long loved poetry I’ve also, kind of, dreaded it. Perhaps I’m a masochist to devote three years of my life to something that I dread, I don’t know. What I can say after a semester and a half at CSU is I used […]

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Light and Ink

February 22, 2019  |  Uncategorized

Whenever we see a film in theatres, my brother won’t let me leave until all the credits have rolled. “Respect your industry,” he still says, though I have left it. It’s astonishing how many names march past at the end of films—each a representation of the sliver of life that was given to try to […]

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Getting Out

January 25, 2019  |  Uncategorized

Before I came to the MFA program at CSU, I wrote in a room with a lake to my left and a shut door to my right. With a notebook balanced on my blanket-covered knees, I would write my stories. They were the ones I hoped would get me into a program, but also stories […]

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“Blinding, the White Horse in Front of Me”

December 7, 2018  |  Uncategorized

I met Alice Notley about a year ago–at the end of my final undergraduate semester in the middle of December–one day after a reading from Certain Magical Acts at Boise State University. I hadn’t been able to meet her after the reading because we got to the gathering that followed it late (my friend Megan, […]

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Sell Art or Sell Out

November 21, 2018  |  Uncategorized

That’s where I am right now. Do I want to sell art—my art, my writings, stories of my life—and in the process sell out all the people I’ll invariably write about? I might be skipping a few steps here. There are no publishers banging down my door for a manuscript that doesn’t exist, but I’m […]

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A Letter to Home from My New One

November 9, 2018  |  Uncategorized

Dear Mom and Dad, I bought an old wooden ladder from a flea market last week and placed it near my fireplace. Mom, you’ll have to tell me what color paint to use. Dad, your old letterman’s jacket is hanging from the top step. It’s nearly falling apart but I can still wear it. The […]

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